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Sunday, August 25th, 2002
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10:00a - Carliche
on friday i went partying with Mela my french girlfriend, she introduced me her friends, they're very nice people, kinda freak though..... and i liked one of them, his name is Carlos, he's so cute, tall, white, skinny, curly black hair and very cute face....we made out and shit, there definately was a connection, i did liked him, he liked me, but i still don't feel sure of wanting somebody by myside, not yet.....
he's very smart, es medio denso y freak y padro hehhehe pero m gusta, al menos puedo platicar con el de cosas decentes, ama la filosofia por cierto....
he was supposed to call me today but i got weird, me dio miedo, o no se que paso, pero prefri no saber si me llamaba o no..... and i came to my parents place....i don't know if he called, i lost my cell phone yesterday so he can't call me there....
i feel very weird and don't know exactly why.......
current mood:  excited (comment on this)
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10:06a - hormones raising make me horny & depressed.....
what could be the reason why i feel weird....
*The fact that i do like Carlos, but i'm building a huge wall between us, the fact that i don't even know if he's gonna call, the fact that i won't believe anything about him, he was all tender and stuff and i was cold, i'm scared, very scared, no quiero sufrir...
*The fact that somehow i don't feel ready to be with a guy yet
*The fact that i had this awful dream, starring Joe of course, i wake up and it was so real that i woke up all sad...
*JC, he's in love with me and i've been just playing with him, that's bad young lady....eso se llama culpa creo, cargo de conciencia o no se.....
*dunno, just a freaking weird shitty feeling.....
*migh be the spm, i'm supposed to get my period until the 30th but my boobs are all sensitive and i'm in a sad mood, so i guess it could be the spm.... i hate hormones......
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current mood:  weird (comment on this)
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10:11a - destiny, fate luck or just shit.....
i spent the last 48 hours partying and drinking, i didn't attend school on friday..... ( y que bueno, solo tngo una clase y esta de weba.....), i know i shouldn't do thar, my health is very sensitive, i know i can't pass the limits, i'm even thinking in not going to the campus party next thursday.... ( but i will go i know....)
last thursday there was a prty in the appartament tht is in front of mine and somehow the party ended up in my appartment, i had so much fun, but the cleaning on friday wasn't that fun.....
mis amigas y yo nos juntamos el viernes a hechar chisme y vino y de ahi por azares del destino termine en la fiesta en casa de Carlos.....
Mela se regresa a Paris ma?ana, me encanta esa ni?a es un amor, que lastima que no la conoci antes...... pero ya estubo que me voy a Francia aunque sea a visitarla.....
current mood: weird
current music: high hopes, pink floyd (comment on this)
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